"Happiness is all in my head... I just gotta find the key." -me.

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THeres just too much to be done. I'm so exhausted.. I'm dying of love though... ^_^ My husband and I are definately newlyweds. We keep fighting over the stupidest things bc we don't understand each other right just yet so its been a little bumpy. I've been controlling and demanding and he's just trying to cope with leave home and dealing with crzy me.. lol.. I have been a lot crzy lately. I don't know what my problem is.. THe doc's just said I was depressed bc I miscarried.. that I needed to move on... Sry for having wanted my own child, ASSHOLES!!! I just can't keep pinning up all the hurt I've been feeling over the past month. It's just making my mood spiral downward... My mom thinks I'm Bi Polar bc my aunt and uncle are.... whatever.. If I am I am, If not then Not.... Idk but I need to figure out how to deal with it in a better way than what I have been. He doesn't deserve to deal and take my crap everyday.. I can't even keep my tone level when all he's done is ask a simple unassuming question.. Not liking myself right now but trying...

Asking for Help is one the hardest things I've ever done bc I don't want anything to be wrong.. is that the right word to use.? idk.. not wrong just don't want to take meds. they don't work.


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He brought me flowers today and I had to hold back tears. I love him so much.. He always knows exactly what will bring a smile to my face without me having to say one word.

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